It's time to prepare for bed. I was preparing my own bedding before I realised Yukino was staring at me quite intently.
"What? You could just pick my grandparents' futons. I've washed them - so don't worry about them smelling like old people."
"No. I wanna share."
"Huh?"
"G-Gotta make the most out of the time I have with you...!"
"How does that has to do anything with sleeping together?"
"W-W-Well... I'm "scared" of sleeping alone in the dark, y'know?!"
"You really are being very annoying today. Fine. If it stops from making dumb excuses."
"Damn, you didn't believe me."
I didn't feel like getting myself all bare in front of a girl, so I kept my clothes on. Yukino on the other hand...
"Stop it. Don't."
"Hwuh???"
"Nope. That's where I draw the line. Let me grab my spare clothes. Go change in the bathroom."
"Are you blushing and stuttering??? You already saw me bare before last year."
"Shut up. That's way different. Go. Change."
...
"You know, I've never put on clothes that are bigger than my size. And the fact that it's your shirt as well..."
"Stop making this scene perverted than it already is."
"Okay-okay, coming in Mr. Grumpface."
Yukino scooted closer to me and I feel... Too overwhelmed. She's so close beneath the covers...
"You're moving too fast..."
"I... I know. Guess I'm just being genuinely afraid here."
"Of what?"
"Of losing you. I don't want to forget you. For as much as you may tease and berate me - I... I dunno, I just want to be with you, to see the world together with you."
"I mean, we're only on our second year. There's still plenty of time I think."
"You say that, but the first year felt like as if it passed in a blink."
"I suppose."
"Hey, Denjirou..."
"What is it?"
"Let's stay like this for a while. I want to thaw your cold heart out."
"... Alright."
I hate this atmosphere. Why do I feel so... Weak right now? Like if I move - I might crumble away. It's so weird. I want to pull closer, but I can't - it would be improper. My head is spinning. I'm overwhelmed.
"Is everything okay?"
"No... This is too much..."
"..."
She put her head on my chest.
"Yeah, it's beating fast. And I thought I was about to die."
"Don't joke about that, please."
"Alright-alright. Let's breathe. Do you want me to go away?"
I could've said no. It would be natural to say as such. I didn't expect for us to be this... And yet...
"Nah, please stay. I don't want you to go away as well."
"Haha~, guess I was being too reckless - sorry."
I would've answered with the usual snark - "yes you were reckless" and such, but...
"Don't be."
Why am I so weak tonight? I hate that. It makes me feel... Terrified.
Terrified... Of losing her.
...
...
...
"This is dream, right?"
"Huh???"
Before me stands Yukino, holding both of my hands.
"Shall we explore this dream together?"