One event to break it all.
One event to erase it all.
And one event to redefine it all.
After what I had witnessed on "that" day, I've stopped being "that" person anymore. "That" person is one of the casualties of this event.
And it gave birth to "current" me.
The fractured me. The one who keeps changing between the states.
One is called the Lunatic, the other is Lucid.
The "Lunatic" keeps me... Happy. It prevents me from falling apart. It keeps from becoming too attached to anyone. And it prevents me from having any doubts when it comes to killing. It just keeps things... Simple.
Of course because "Lunatic" is less hinged, it also tends to break things more easily due to their more... Decisive personality.
It doesn't understand such things as boundaries. To it, humans are pathetic little weaklings that can be squashed, and only I, the "Lucid" can prevent them from doing any harm in case they get particularly upset.
Of course, even I misjudge things due to my hardened heart, and lady Virgilia, in her soft benevolence would oftentimes prevent me from causing serious harm to anyone. She is a human after all; even behind that stern exterior that she puts on.
The me that I am now, the "Lucid" ... Well, I prefer to not interact with the world. I'm afraid if I'll be attached again, my heart will break all over. Yet when those damned spores inside me dampen its aggression to screeching halt... I have to come out.
And with my vision clear once more, I see Aden, lady Virgilia, and that runt.
But I... Don't want to see them. Don't want to see them hurt and afraid.
So the lunatic comes out once more.
And the lunatic does entertain them as well - keep them happy - so might as well keep it for a while.
It might at least give something that resembles "that" person that died on "that" fateful day. That they believe is still in me somehow.