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I'm home.
No one's there.
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"Haha! Get away, you squeeb. You should just die already!"
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"Denji... Your choked noises... They're pretty funny, haha... Look, you're becoming blue. You're struggling..."
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"Denji, know this. You should be ready to die for your ideals. Human is mortal, but ideas are immortal."
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"*Knock-knock-knock*"
"Shh! Denjirou! Don't make a sound. We'll be packing tomorrow."
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The hilt feels heavy...
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I'm scared... I don't wanna feel pain anymore.
That one time I got cut by it, it lasted for days.
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I'm scared... It's going to hurt...
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For the first time, ever since I saw it - I'm drowning in the sea. Before, I simply floated atop of it, never touching my feet on the surface of the water - but now I sink. Several creatures begin to appear, mocking me as the kelp began to drag me down. I still feel pain, enormous pain - but also weakness overwhelming me.
It seems I've been drowning for a long time. I can't see the abyss. And yet suddenly...
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I woke up in the hospital. There were several doctors watching me, doing things to me. Doing things that just don't register. I feel numb and it felt like haze surrounding me.
After a while, I saw her. My grandma. She broke down crying, covering her face.
It's not the first time she cried. She cried a lot because of my parents and yet - seeing her like this made me feel absolutely awful about myself.
"Denjirou... You idiot... You know that I can't lose you?!...
Not after her... Not after her...
I can't..."
That's when I made an oath to never try this ever again.
My parents made a disgraceful act, but the most selfish thing I could do is letting my grandma take it all in by herself.
Such act - is not worth it.
It was after that when the noise finally stopped for the time being.
At night, the stars were red.